The allure of dreaming.

For a few weeks now I've been torturing myself by engaging in some pretty unhealthy dreaming.

See, it's not bad to dream. It's just not ideal when you don’t feel motivated, as if those dream don’t mean anything to you. Isn’t that good enough of a reason to at least persist?

Yesterday I attended my first sewing lessons with a nice enough lady from a local quilt shop here in Maine. It was a 1:1 lesson, where I learned to make 'standard' pillowcases using 'the burrito method'.  It was a lot simpler and easier than I had imaged, and I know I have god-knows-who to thank for simplifying that, so thank you. 

One aspect of the day that I may have enjoyed a little more than the actual sewing was the hunt for the fabric I would use, and then finding another pattern to go with it.  The thrill of combining different textiles is something I am happy I've found enjoyment in.  As for the quality of the lessons imparted, much was left to be desired for. .    

And so, there I was with 2 yards of loose ends I was sold, and absolutely no clue as to what I needed to do next.   I let some weeks pass by and then I started feeling angry at myself because it had seemed like I was ready to give up, yet again. 

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{Previous Current Day} Current day. September 7, 2018 

{***CURRENT Present Day, January 15, 2019}

What a journey! I am so happy to update you all with some pretty fabulous news from my end.  After much frustration with not receiving the quality instruction I was seeking, I made the decision that I would go by Maine's College of Art, to sign up for classes in sewing. I am so happy to share with you that I learned invaluable couture lessons in stitching!  One year later, I am living the dream I envisioned for myself, creating pieces I am truly proud of.   It is true that “how and what you say to yourself” in those moments of struggle is Vital. I emphasize the vitality of the tone, nature and quality of everything you murmur, mutter, or say aloud to yourself. See, it works like this… if you tell yourself you can’t do something, then who would know better than you? Always believe that you are capable or trying. And when that fails, try it again. And again, and again!